"Soon I realized that if beauty equalled forgiveness, I was never going to be forgiven"
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The sting is in the conditional. “If” makes it sound like a rule he tested and found true, not a metaphor he’s tossing off. “Soon I realized” reads like a childhood education in cruelty: the moment you learn that punishment and mercy aren’t distributed evenly, and that the body is part of the evidence. The final clause, “I was never going to be forgiven,” widens the issue beyond looks into identity. Aucoin grew up queer in the South, and his career unfolded in an industry that monetizes desirability while enforcing narrow standards. The line hints at the double bind: you can master the tools of transformation for others, yet still feel excluded from the social absolution beauty seems to grant.
It also works because it’s quietly accusatory. Forgiveness is supposed to be moral, private, earned. He’s pointing out how often it’s aesthetic, public, and purchased. In a culture that confuses being appealing with being innocent, this isn’t just personal lament; it’s indictment.
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| Topic | Forgiveness |
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Aucoin, Kevyn. (2026, January 18). Soon I realized that if beauty equalled forgiveness, I was never going to be forgiven. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/soon-i-realized-that-if-beauty-equalled-3842/
Chicago Style
Aucoin, Kevyn. "Soon I realized that if beauty equalled forgiveness, I was never going to be forgiven." FixQuotes. January 18, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/soon-i-realized-that-if-beauty-equalled-3842/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"Soon I realized that if beauty equalled forgiveness, I was never going to be forgiven." FixQuotes, 18 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/soon-i-realized-that-if-beauty-equalled-3842/. Accessed 16 Feb. 2026.





