"The name of my ailment was longing, and it was not cured till I finally went to the department store and counted out the money in small coins before the dismayed clerk. When I came to the house, I held up the instrument before the eyes of the astonished household"
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The department store is doing double work as setting and symbol. It`s the early 20th-century temple of possibility: mass-produced instruments, democratic access, and the subtle indignity of being measured by what you can pay today. Handy`s longing gets translated into a consumer transaction, but the scene refuses the fantasy of instant transformation. You can feel the tension between reverence for the object and awareness of how the marketplace polices who gets to participate.
Then comes the switch from private ache to public reveal: he returns home and "held up the instrument" before an "astonished household". That`s not just a proud unveiling; it`s a claim. The instrument becomes a visible argument that his desire is serious enough to reorganize the family`s expectations and resources. Subtextually, Handy is capturing a blues-era truth: art isn`t born only from suffering; it also comes from the audacity to invest in yourself when everyone around you is bracing for disappointment.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Handy, William Christopher. (2026, January 15). The name of my ailment was longing, and it was not cured till I finally went to the department store and counted out the money in small coins before the dismayed clerk. When I came to the house, I held up the instrument before the eyes of the astonished household. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/the-name-of-my-ailment-was-longing-and-it-was-not-145536/
Chicago Style
Handy, William Christopher. "The name of my ailment was longing, and it was not cured till I finally went to the department store and counted out the money in small coins before the dismayed clerk. When I came to the house, I held up the instrument before the eyes of the astonished household." FixQuotes. January 15, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/the-name-of-my-ailment-was-longing-and-it-was-not-145536/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"The name of my ailment was longing, and it was not cured till I finally went to the department store and counted out the money in small coins before the dismayed clerk. When I came to the house, I held up the instrument before the eyes of the astonished household." FixQuotes, 15 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/the-name-of-my-ailment-was-longing-and-it-was-not-145536/. Accessed 26 Feb. 2026.

