"There was three or four years of my life where I hated myself and you know, would have quite happily ended it"
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The specific intent reads as corrective. Johns has long been framed through achievement and spectacle, a prodigy fronting Silverchair through a very public adolescence. This line yanks the camera away from success metrics and toward the cost of being watched, judged, and mythologized while still forming an identity. “Three or four years” is devastating in its mundanity: not a bad week, not a crisis night, but a sustained era where survival wasn’t guaranteed. It reframes self-destruction as endurance, not impulse.
Subtextually, he’s also rejecting the idea that pain must be narratively tidy to be legitimate. The grammar is imperfect (“There was three or four years”), the sentiment uncurated. That messiness is a kind of authenticity test: real suffering often arrives without eloquence. Culturally, it punctures the lingering expectation that artists should transmute damage into palatable art and then move on. Johns makes the darker bargain visible: the music may have sounded triumphant; the person making it wasn’t.
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| Topic | Mental Health |
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"There was three or four years of my life where I hated myself and you know, would have quite happily ended it." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/there-was-three-or-four-years-of-my-life-where-i-64988/. Accessed 11 Feb. 2026.





