"To actually be allowed to be beautiful is a total first for me"
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The line is also a deft reversal of the usual celebrity confession. Instead of “I never felt pretty,” Johnston frames it structurally: she wasn’t merely insecure, she was managed. “Allowed” suggests a lifetime of being slotted as the funny one, the oddball, the sidekick, the character who can be sexual only as a joke or a twist. That tracks with the way Hollywood often treats women who read as tall, sharp-featured, loud, or simply not easily reduced to “ingenue.” Your value becomes tied to your usefulness in someone else’s narrative, not your own sense of self.
“Actually” does important work, too: it’s the sound of disbelief at a new contract being offered late. “Total first” isn’t just personal revelation; it’s an indictment of a culture that rations beauty like a privilege, and then congratulates itself when it finally hands it out. The emotional charge comes from how small the sentence is. No manifesto, no vengeance, just the weary astonishment of being seen on fair terms for once.
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Johnston, Kristen. (2026, January 17). To actually be allowed to be beautiful is a total first for me. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/to-actually-be-allowed-to-be-beautiful-is-a-total-54406/
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"To actually be allowed to be beautiful is a total first for me." FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/to-actually-be-allowed-to-be-beautiful-is-a-total-54406/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.











