"Unjust. How many times I've used that word, scolded myself with it. All I mean by it now is that I don't have the final courage to say that I refuse to preside over violations against myself, and to hell with justice"
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Her real target is the comfort of principle-talk. When she says "All I mean by it now", she strips the term down to its psychological function: "unjust" becomes a euphemism for fear. The phrase "final courage" is key. It implies she has had partial courage before - the kind that registers injury, names it correctly, maybe even protests in language - but not the decisive courage that would force action. Justice, in this frame, is less a cause than an alibi: if you keep arguing about justice, you can avoid the more frightening statement, "I refuse."
Then she detonates the ethical bomb: "refuse to preside over violations against myself". Preside is a brilliantly chosen verb. It casts passivity as complicity, the self as an administrator of its own humiliation. Her closing - "and to hell with justice" - isn't nihilism so much as impatience with lofty standards that arrive too late. In Hellman's world, the moral life starts not with grand ideals but with a blunt boundary. Justice can be a public language; refusal is the private act that makes it real.
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APA Style (7th ed.)
Hellman, Lillian. (2026, January 18). Unjust. How many times I've used that word, scolded myself with it. All I mean by it now is that I don't have the final courage to say that I refuse to preside over violations against myself, and to hell with justice. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/unjust-how-many-times-ive-used-that-word-scolded-13190/
Chicago Style
Hellman, Lillian. "Unjust. How many times I've used that word, scolded myself with it. All I mean by it now is that I don't have the final courage to say that I refuse to preside over violations against myself, and to hell with justice." FixQuotes. January 18, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/unjust-how-many-times-ive-used-that-word-scolded-13190/.
MLA Style (9th ed.)
"Unjust. How many times I've used that word, scolded myself with it. All I mean by it now is that I don't have the final courage to say that I refuse to preside over violations against myself, and to hell with justice." FixQuotes, 18 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/unjust-how-many-times-ive-used-that-word-scolded-13190/. Accessed 22 Feb. 2026.










