"Was it only by dreaming or writing that I could find out what I thought?"
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The intent is diagnostic. “Only by dreaming or writing” points to two states where the usual social editing loosens: in dreams, the brain free-associates without reputation management; in writing, the self is forced to commit to a sequence, to cause and effect, to implications. Didion’s subtext is that thought isn’t preexisting content waiting to be “expressed.” It’s manufactured under pressure, and the pressure comes from language. You learn what you believe by watching what your sentences insist on, what they dodge, what they can’t quite say without cracking.
Context matters because Didion made a career out of treating narrative as both refuge and trap. Her essays often circle the moment when story stops being a cozy explanation and starts revealing the writer’s own complicity, fear, or desire for control. This question keeps the reader inside that hinge: writing as epistemology, not decoration. It’s also a warning about “knowing” too quickly. If you can only locate your thoughts through the unsettling clarity of dreams or the ruthless discipline of prose, then certainty is suspect and attention becomes an ethical practice.
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Didion, Joan. (2026, January 17). Was it only by dreaming or writing that I could find out what I thought? FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/was-it-only-by-dreaming-or-writing-that-i-could-65983/
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MLA Style (9th ed.)
"Was it only by dreaming or writing that I could find out what I thought?" FixQuotes, 17 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/was-it-only-by-dreaming-or-writing-that-i-could-65983/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.







