"Well I started studying to help me with these commercial auditions and I just loved it"
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There is a whole philosophy of survival tucked into Ward's offhand phrasing: she "started studying" for something as unglamorous and transactional as commercial auditions, then discovered a hunger that had nothing to do with selling shampoo. The sentence moves from hustle to love in a single breath, and that pivot is the point. It reframes "study" not as lofty self-improvement but as a practical tool a working actor picks up to stay employed. Then it quietly admits that craft, once pursued for rent money, can become an identity.
The context matters because commercial auditions sit at the bottom of the cultural prestige ladder while often paying the bills. Ward is describing a familiar creative bait-and-switch: you enter through the side door of necessity, and once you're inside, the work seduces you. Her wording keeps the glamour at arm's length. "These" commercial auditions suggests a steady churn, the grind of being evaluated in fluorescent rooms. Against that, "I just loved it" lands like a small rebellion. It's emotional, blunt, a little surprised at itself.
Subtext: legitimacy is built, not granted. Ward isn't claiming innate genius; she's telling you she trained because she had to, and in training found agency. For an actress navigating an industry that routinely reduces women to type and surface, the love here reads as ownership: a pivot from being cast to casting herself as a serious practitioner. It's also a democratizing origin story - not the myth of being discovered, but the reality of choosing to get better until the work starts feeding you back.
The context matters because commercial auditions sit at the bottom of the cultural prestige ladder while often paying the bills. Ward is describing a familiar creative bait-and-switch: you enter through the side door of necessity, and once you're inside, the work seduces you. Her wording keeps the glamour at arm's length. "These" commercial auditions suggests a steady churn, the grind of being evaluated in fluorescent rooms. Against that, "I just loved it" lands like a small rebellion. It's emotional, blunt, a little surprised at itself.
Subtext: legitimacy is built, not granted. Ward isn't claiming innate genius; she's telling you she trained because she had to, and in training found agency. For an actress navigating an industry that routinely reduces women to type and surface, the love here reads as ownership: a pivot from being cast to casting herself as a serious practitioner. It's also a democratizing origin story - not the myth of being discovered, but the reality of choosing to get better until the work starts feeding you back.
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