"You never think the universe will reward your first choice - it just doesn't work like that"
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There’s a filmmaker’s pragmatism baked into this line: the universe, Bigelow implies, doesn’t hand out gold stars for decisiveness. The “first choice” is the fantasy of clean narratives - the audition that nails it, the script that lands untouched, the relationship that doesn’t require rewrites. Bigelow’s work has never been interested in that kind of comfort. Her films are machines for pressure, built around characters who act fast and then live with the aftershocks.
The quote works because it frames disappointment as physics, not punishment. “Reward” is doing a lot of work here: it calls out the childish part of decision-making that expects moral reciprocity, as if wanting something badly (or choosing it bravely) should make it right. Bigelow rejects that bargain. The universe isn’t a mentor; it’s an environment. You make a move, and the consequences arrive on their own schedule.
Contextually, it reads like craft advice smuggled in as life advice. Directing is an endless negotiation with contingency: weather, budgets, bodies, egos, accidents that become the best take. Your first choice is often the most idealized one, the version untouched by reality. Bigelow’s point isn’t that you should be cynical or indecisive; it’s that you should be resilient and adaptive. If the “reward” doesn’t come, it doesn’t mean the choice was wrong. It means you’re still in the edit, still shaping meaning out of what actually happened.
The quote works because it frames disappointment as physics, not punishment. “Reward” is doing a lot of work here: it calls out the childish part of decision-making that expects moral reciprocity, as if wanting something badly (or choosing it bravely) should make it right. Bigelow rejects that bargain. The universe isn’t a mentor; it’s an environment. You make a move, and the consequences arrive on their own schedule.
Contextually, it reads like craft advice smuggled in as life advice. Directing is an endless negotiation with contingency: weather, budgets, bodies, egos, accidents that become the best take. Your first choice is often the most idealized one, the version untouched by reality. Bigelow’s point isn’t that you should be cynical or indecisive; it’s that you should be resilient and adaptive. If the “reward” doesn’t come, it doesn’t mean the choice was wrong. It means you’re still in the edit, still shaping meaning out of what actually happened.
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| Topic | Perseverance |
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