"I remember being onstage once when I didn't have fear: I got so scared I didn't have fear that it brought on an anxiety attack"
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Performance anxiety usually gets framed as a hurdle to clear so you can arrive at the promised land of effortless confidence. Carly Simon flips that fantasy into a trap. The punchline is almost slapstick: the rare moment when fear disappears becomes its own emergency. But the joke lands because it exposes how a performer’s inner life is built on monitoring and control. When your job depends on reading the room, reading yourself becomes part of the gig. If the instrument is your voice and your nervous system, “calm” can feel less like relief and more like a sign something’s malfunctioning.
The subtext is that fear isn’t just an obstacle; it’s also a feedback loop that confirms you’re alive, alert, in the story. Simon’s line captures the paradox of hypervigilance: you can’t simply decide to stop scanning for danger because the absence of scanning becomes a new data point to interpret. “Why am I not afraid?” quickly turns into “What am I missing?” That’s anxiety’s signature move, converting neutral sensations into alarms.
As a cultural moment, it’s an unusually candid refusal of the rock-star myth. Musicians are supposed to project ease, charisma, and mastery, especially onstage. Simon admits that even mastery has side effects, that the performance isn’t only out front under the lights but also backstage in the mind, where composure has to be constantly re-earned. The line works because it’s funny, yes, but it’s also a precise portrait of how modern anxiety thrives: not in obvious peril, but in the pressure to feel the correct thing at the correct time.
The subtext is that fear isn’t just an obstacle; it’s also a feedback loop that confirms you’re alive, alert, in the story. Simon’s line captures the paradox of hypervigilance: you can’t simply decide to stop scanning for danger because the absence of scanning becomes a new data point to interpret. “Why am I not afraid?” quickly turns into “What am I missing?” That’s anxiety’s signature move, converting neutral sensations into alarms.
As a cultural moment, it’s an unusually candid refusal of the rock-star myth. Musicians are supposed to project ease, charisma, and mastery, especially onstage. Simon admits that even mastery has side effects, that the performance isn’t only out front under the lights but also backstage in the mind, where composure has to be constantly re-earned. The line works because it’s funny, yes, but it’s also a precise portrait of how modern anxiety thrives: not in obvious peril, but in the pressure to feel the correct thing at the correct time.
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| Topic | Anxiety |
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