"I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear"
About this Quote
The intent is practical, almost reportorial: to use prose as a diagnostic tool. Didion’s best work - from the California essays to The White Album - treats experience as a scene you return to, replay, and cross-examine. “To find out” suggests she doesn’t trust intuition alone; she trusts sentences, the way they force choices, exclusions, and emphasis. The subtext is anxiety: if you don’t write it down, you don’t actually know what happened, or what you felt, or whether you’re fooling yourself. That’s why the list ends with desire and fear, the two engines that quietly steer perception and memory.
Context matters: Didion came of age amid American myth-making (Golden West, Hollywood, political pageantry) and watched it fray in public. Her cool, exacting voice isn’t just style; it’s a survival tactic against the seductions of narrative. She’s telling you that clarity isn’t a personality trait. It’s labor. And writing is where that labor leaves fingerprints.
Quote Details
| Topic | Writing |
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| Source | Joan Didion, "On Keeping a Notebook," essay in Slouching Towards Bethlehem (Farrar, Straus & Giroux, 1968). |
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Didion, Joan. (2026, January 14). I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear. FixQuotes. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-write-entirely-to-find-out-what-im-thinking-142954/
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Didion, Joan. "I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear." FixQuotes. January 14, 2026. https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-write-entirely-to-find-out-what-im-thinking-142954/.
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"I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear." FixQuotes, 14 Jan. 2026, https://fixquotes.com/quotes/i-write-entirely-to-find-out-what-im-thinking-142954/. Accessed 12 Feb. 2026.




