"There's a lot of reasons you can think of to say why you act, but I can only say that it just felt good. At the same time, it felt really painful. It's still troubling and stressful to me"

In this quote, Skeet Ulrich is assessing his actions and the factors behind them. He acknowledges that there are many possible explanations for why he acts the method he does, however eventually, he can only associate it to the fact that it made him feel great. Nevertheless, he also recognizes that there is a sense of pain and discomfort that occurs with it. This internal dispute between pleasure and discomfort is still something that difficulties and stresses him. It recommends that his actions may not always line up with his values and that he is grappling with the effects of his choices.