"Here I am trying to live, or rather, I am trying to teach the death within me how to live"
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The phrase “the death within me” isn’t just morbidity; it’s a diagnosis of psychic weather. Cocteau lived through World War I and II, cycled through grief, addiction, scandal, and the punishing scrutiny reserved for famous artists who also refuse to be discreet about desire. For him, “death” reads less like an event and more like a resident force: depression, self-erasure, the pull toward numbness, the part of the self that would rather stop being perceived.
So the intent isn’t to romanticize despair. It’s to describe an artist’s daily labor: training the inert, wounded, or exhausted self to move through the world anyway. The verb “teach” matters. Teaching implies patience, repetition, failure, a stubborn commitment to craft. That’s the subtext: life as direction. Cocteau the director speaks as if his inner death is an actor hitting marks, taking notes, learning how to look alive under the lights.
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