"I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp into the water, and I did go part way, but I stopped. I went again and stopped. I then got out of the car and stood by the car a nervous wreck"

In this quote, Susan Smith is describing a moment of extreme desperation and misery in her life. She exposes that she had actually reached a point where she wished to end her life, and she was even in her car, prepared to repel a ramp and into the water. However, she thought twice and stopped herself from going through with it. This shows the internal battle she was facing, as she went back and forth in between wanting to end her life and hesitating to do so. Ultimately, she left the cars and truck and was left sensation exceptionally distressed and overloaded. This quote highlights the depth of her emotional turmoil and the gravity of her situation.